Tim GilmerWhen we are first injured or diagnosed, in time we become attuned to the need for adaptation and change. But that process is usually short-circuited by resentment and anger at some point, whether we want to admit it or not. It didn’t take long for my anger, my beast within, to try to commandeer my newly injured body and mind.

I remember writing angry poems — blaming God for my paralysis, blaming my surgeon for not doing anything about it, blaming Wall Street for all the greed in the world, blaming the older generation for war and poverty, blaming “The Establishment” for caring about only their status quo, blaming our acquisitive culture for our nation’s skin deep values, blaming Madison Avenue for creating a nation of mindless consumers. Wherever I turned, whatever I observed, it was easy for me to assign blame. My inner beast had taken control.

To still the everpresent discontent I turned to alcohol, often drinking myself into an unconscious state, not remembering anything the next morning. Drugs followed, whatever gave me a new high or low, anything to escape who I was. I’ve heard a lot of people say they don’t regret a moment of their lives, but I have a hard time bel