When I could walk, I had no problem making a fool of myself in front of other people. Dancing at weddings to ridiculous songs, singing of top of my lungs at friends’ birthday parties, but now that I use a wheelchair? I’m ashamed to say I don’t have the same cajones.
I hate how being in a wheelchair can make you super self-conscious. And despite all the confidence I’ve accumulated, learning how to be a strong woman in a wheelchair when it comes to performing in public? I just can’t do it (and I grew up loving to dance and sing for people).
When I see Ali Stroker, a Broadway actress and paraplegic, all I can of think of is, “How in the heck does she do it? How does she go out there, in her wheelchair, and perform?” Granted, her injury happened when she was a toddler so she doesn’t know any different. I just wish I could have that same perspective some days. Remembering what it’s like to be an able-bodied performer, and then trying to do the same performing in a wheelchair, is so not easy.
And what about karaoke? The other day I ran into an old high school friend, who asked me to go out to do karaoke with him. I told him, “In another life I would’ve loved karaoke, but not in this wheelchair” (and even if I was a karao