#185406 - 04/06/10 08:47 PM
Re: i had been feeling empty lately...
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kan5a5
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oh is sweetqt another michelle?
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#185407 - 04/06/10 08:49 PM
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Lola
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oh is sweetqt another michelle?
mac = michele
sweetqt = michelle
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#185408 - 04/06/10 08:51 PM
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kan5a5
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well...then i won't procsecute, this time.
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#185409 - 04/06/10 08:52 PM
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Lola
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thank you, boss 
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#185419 - 04/07/10 11:15 AM
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Johnboy 64
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HOPE YOU SORT THINGS OUT TERRY
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#185422 - 04/07/10 11:23 AM
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MerryA
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Terry - How old are you? 49 is a huge age for spiritual re-allignments. Your life has changed (thank God or you would be stagnant). Prayers lifted for you - internal assessments are generally the most difficult but you have within you all that is necessary to transition. I was going through a similar "emptiness" the past few years but I have made adjustments and now have extended periods of fulfillment - it will happen for you too.
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#185423 - 04/07/10 12:40 PM
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kan5a5
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yes, i'm 49.
what's strange for me is that i'm generally my best advocate in getting what i need. if i feel like i need some new people in my social circle, i go get 'em. if i need a new vehicle for creative expression, i create it.
lately, i haven't been able to put my finger on it. i just feel somewhat disconnected to nearly everything.
living in a dying town, serving a dying church with a dying body...it's all a bit much.
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#185424 - 04/07/10 12:53 PM
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Paulwa_dup1
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Kind of reminds me of an episode on Doc Martin tv show.A young lady inquires of Dr.Martin about her girlfriend, 'is she going to die?' As Doc strode off he gave an emphatic,'Yes!.......
..but not today!'
Hang in there Kan5a5.
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#185425 - 04/07/10 01:36 PM
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flicka
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living in a dying town, serving a dying church with a dying body...it's all a bit much.
uuuuuugggggggggh! Alright, you almost bummed me out with that one. You need spring, sunshine & new growth. Don't lose it on me, Terry. You've always been so positive & upbeat. Maybe it's time to read some Deepak Chopra.
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#185428 - 04/07/10 02:26 PM
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kan5a5
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oh, don't take the dying references too much to heart.
whether or not my mind is sensing a new body trend or not, i, like you, like everyone, am in the process of dying.
small towns are dying all across the country. thanks in part to the great satan, walmart.
every denomination of christianity is losing members; some social commentators call it the dechristianization of america.
even in rural areas, those connected to a gaming system outnumber those connected to the land by huge proportions.
i'm wrestling with emerging in the midst of all this, regardless of the health of my body, church, or town. it's the only choice.
if i didn't feel so insulated from so much, i might be tempted to play a game called - 'count how many untimely unfortunate choices you can make in one lifetime' dying has become a broader cultural metaphor for so much of my personal american history. maybe the game should be called last man standing?
...so, while i may be facing a darker creative season, i characterize it more as boldly processing reality than reacting to depressive contraints.
as usual - i have never imagined that i ended up here by accident. where my life-bus stops, is where i have driven it.
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#185429 - 04/07/10 02:33 PM
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kan5a5
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I know one thing: I need you; you add so much to these message boards... at least for me. Although you've kept our connection to posts on message boards, I appreciate your every word! Peace, peaches (but then again, maybe I have no idea what I'm talking about  )
i appreciate your contribution to my life as well. if you want to step up our rapport, stop by. you are welcome.
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#185435 - 04/07/10 05:45 PM
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flicka
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Ringling, ringling, slippin away
Only forty people livin there today
Streets are dusty and the bank has been torn down
It's a dying little town
(Jimmy Buffett)
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#185437 - 04/07/10 06:36 PM
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IndiAnna
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I hope your start feeling full again soon Kan.
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#185442 - 04/08/10 01:18 AM
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ghoti
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Perception shifts - events where my entire view of life and my role in it made a sudden change. Each time they redefined me into a different person than I thought I was and caused me to move in an entirely new direction:
- The births of each of my children.
- Completely changing my career.
- Divorce.
- Losing myself to alcohol and then rediscovering myself after defeating it.
- My daughter coming to live with me at age 13 after we had been apart for nearly 10 years.
- My son going off to college 500 miles away after we had been together all his life.
- SCI.
- Spiritual reawakening.
- The deaths of my parents.
All of these and more have changed and molded me, and I'm sure that there is more to come. Only those who are already dead inside allow themselves to be so set in stone that they are closed to paradigm shifts. We are caterpillars who repeatedly form a cocoon around ourselves, and it must be broken at times to allow the butterfly within us to emerge.
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#185443 - 04/08/10 06:16 AM
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msfez
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Dear Terry,
Don't be bad mouthin' Walmart. Any time you can buy a riding mower, gas, socks, and cream cheese in the same place sort of makes me all warm and fuzzy.
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msfez
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